Friday, September 30, 2005

開夜睇功課(唔係做功課!)

咪以為淨係做野讀書做功課、或者去旅行公幹前一晚執行李先至須要開夜無得訓覺,勢估唔到原來幫兩個女睇功課都可以成為要開夜車既內容!係咪發夢都無諗過呢?

由晏晝教書直落六個鐘到夜晚十點幾先至返屋企,通常就淨係見得兩個女兩眼,講得句good night就要逼佢地入房訓,食埋晚飯就起碼十一點半!前一晚趕畢業論文就已經成三四點訓(未做起添架!),諗住擒晚可以早D訓補番數,點知老婆話仲有兩個女D功課未睇!咪問點解佢唔可以睇,其實老婆放左工到我返屋企,同我一樣都係未食飯,皆因要同兩隻野溫書for今朝早默書。陪佢地溫書同默到識為止就已經勁gui架啦老友!所以睇功課就留番比我啦...

咪以為睇功課係一件hang-kang既事bor,隨時攪你兩三粒鐘:每日兩個女會將要做既功課寫晒係本手冊度,你就要逐樣幫佢地go through,睇下有無做漏做錯,跟住又有一疊通告要睇要簽,唔淨止,其中一兩張就要麻煩你開埋張cheque跟埋一氣,一陣話要買乜野書、一陣話去旅行要俾車錢... 記住以上所有野都係雙份(兩個女嘛)!試諗下張張cheques都要寫佢地成12個字長癩癩既學校名做抬頭,就擒晚咁計一共開左三張cheques,淨係寫D抬頭都成36個字,仲要大寫個銀碼、每張cheque背面又要寫番係乜事幹、個女既名、班別同號數... 你話對我呢個慣用電腦輸入既人黎計,係咪寫到手都gui埋?而家我寫上面咁多字都唔駛咁耐同咁gui啦!

以上既都未到戲肉!睇睇下頂唔順啦,攤係張梳化度訓著左(前晚訓左四五個鐘咋!)... 擘大眼(其實根本擘唔大)已經係半夜三點幾,D功課都未睇完... 唔係啦,都係沖個涼先,希望可以精神D再睇埋佢... 沖完涼,好,的起心肝睇埋佢(寫論文都無咁好意志力)!Lor隻西班牙頂級鋼琴家Maria Joao Pires既《Nocturnes(夜禱)》獨奏系列出黎伴住睇,果然無靜英英咁悶。兩隻野照例都有D野未做未攪掂或者做錯,或者有D書無話到俾媽咪知要溫 —— 都係聽朝要默bor!大鑊啦!咁即係我要早D起身係佢地未返學之前(即係六點幾)同佢地溫埋佢?咁咪即係我仲要訓少D?咁咪即係聽日返工又試嗚下嗚下?擔高頭望下個鐘已經五點咯bor!個肚又有D餓添... 唔理啦!個零鐘係梳化訓埋佢算啦...

以上呢D唔係埋怨,除左話俾大家知我既time management有幾差之外,只不過係想大家知道為人父母會係點樣為自己既仔女付出?!我呢D只係濕濕碎,算得乜?大把父母偉大過我不知幾千倍!做女既睇完記住返屋企錫番阿爸阿媽一啖,做仔既,都可以攬下佢地兩老啦!

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Wednesday, September 28, 2005

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【既然大家咁好反應,就借用一樓一以前俾過我既相黎繼續同大家分享下祖國用黎美化市容既非一般產品設計啦...】

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Tuesday, September 27, 2005

BB奶咀

Today's blog is dedicated to new parents and parents-to-be...

All products available at getbubbateeth.com.

(趕緊論文,無時間寫野。攪住笑先啦下!)

Monday, September 26, 2005

綠化環境

有這兩天訪問深廣的香港立法會議員盛讚廣州市市面綠化工作做得好,到底有甚麼秘訣?

答案:用青綠色顏料將草地噴綠佢lor!上圖係中國為了爭取奧運成功,在國際奧委會蒞臨中國考察前,派人把枯草用噴漆「綠化」。

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Saturday, September 24, 2005

Praying husband

一拖再拖,本應每月一次的伉儷小組今天終於能在三號風球下在沙田的弟兄家中舉行了。

雖然沒有多姿多采的環節,也沒有生動活潑的演繹,還是要說句「感謝神!」,因祂籍著弟兄認真的預備,不單為各對夫婦提供了一個彼此增進了解的機會,亦能讓我(相信其他夫婦亦有同感)反省了一些沒有想過的問題:「身為丈夫的我是如何為太太祈禱的呢?」

開 始是一個簡單的遊戲,讓各丈夫們有機會分享了自己怎樣看為太太代禱的優先次序,跟太太們比較了她們自己平日怎樣為自己祈禱的實況。各對夫婦比較了雙方的 先後次序後,我即時有一個有趣的發現:我們作為丈夫的,為太太代禱時總是以problem-solving的心態出發 —— 太太因工作或同事煩擾嗎?我就為她求神賜她好上司好同事,並她對工作能應付自如,好讓這些情緒消散;太太因記掛兒女的成長和學業煩擾嗎?我便求神讓女兒身 心健康、學得乖乖的,好讓這些憂慮也能消散;太太因自己的身體狀況和健康煩擾嗎?我便求神讓她能保持青春美麗、身心健康、天天經歷主的恩典,至少也能將這 些不安減至最低吧!或許吧... 總之甚麼人或事叫她煩憂嗎?我便求神記念那件事好了。太太沒有煩憂,彷彿是我作丈夫的最終極要解決的問體...

可 是最重要的發現是:我們在座多數的丈夫們,都沒有想過為自己做一個上帝眼中更好的丈夫祈禱!原來我們的靈命如何、情緒如何、健康如何、事業前途如何、當 一個怎樣的爸爸等,都對太太的靈命、情緒、信心和表現... 都起著關鍵的影響,英文所謂instrumental!原來她那些大大小小的情緒、憂慮、擔心、懼怕等事情,都大不過我如何當上一個好丈夫!我可以透過做 一個稱職的丈夫來化解她這麼多的疑難,為甚麼我們作丈夫的都大多沒有想到,反將為自己做一個更好的丈夫這項禱告摒出頭十名優先代禱事項之外!我想這又一次 是我們這班「犯賤的男人」 沒有嘗試明白,在太太心目中自己其實是如何重要、自己小小的事情原來她可以如何 給她掛得入心入肺、對她身心靈的狀態起著這麼大的作用!犯賤的丈夫們,我們是輕視了自己的重要性、輕視了太太對我們的愛和委身、還是想自己騙自己,想逃避 自己擔起叫太太免去煩憂的首要重任呢?感謝神!今晚提醒我了!至愛的太太,我知道和明白了!原來給太太最好和最首要的禱告,便是為我自己作為她全然委身的 這個丈夫禱告!太太啊,雖然夜了,容我現在就為妳最重視的丈夫代禱吧:

「主啊!求你使我裡面有正直的靈。求你使我成為合你心意、討太太喜 悅、叫她放心的一位丈夫。更新我們對彼此的愛,並醫治任何會給我們帶來嫌隙的傷口。求你 賜我耐心和體諒,讓我全心全意的愛她,對她溫柔謙卑,正如你的道所要求於我的,並使我能按著你愛她的樣式去愛她。主,我祈求你帶領我倆進入彼此合一的新境 界,使我們彼此同心。求你啟示我當做的事,好使這光境能夠成真。求你賜我醫治的言語,而不是傷害的言語。當我做錯了的時候,求你向我顯明自己的不是,並有 勇氣向她說對不起,幫助我成為你眼中的男人和丈夫。阿們!」

親愛的太太,謝謝妳前兩天妳送給我的兩個書簽和上面的鼓勵!能與妳一起,實是上帝給我最大的福氣。我想起一首我極愛的英文歌,沒有妳我不會懂得欣賞它:

You're My Home ~ by Billy Joel

When you look into my eyes
And you see the crazy gypsy in my soul
It always comes as a surprise
When I feel my withered roots begin to grow
Well I never had a place that I could call my very own
That's all right, my love, 'cause you're my home

When you touch my weary head
And you tell me everything will be all right
You say, "Use my body for your bed
And my love will keep you warm throughout the night"
Well I'll never be a stranger and I'll never be alone
Whenever we're together, that's my home

Home can be the Pennsylvania Turnpike
Indiana's early morning dew
High up in the hills of California
Home is just another word for you

Well I never had a place that I could call my very own
That's all right, my love, 'cause you're my home

If I travel all my life
And I never get to stop and settle down
Long as I have you by my side
There's a roof above and good walls all around
You're my castle, you're my cabin and my instant pleasure dome
I need you in my house 'cause you're my home.

You're my home.
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於參加伉儷小組之前,跟太太到中環的五星級酒店享受了一頓免費和高雅的英式下午茶。縱然吃的並不是我的偏好(更何況我根本不懂得吃),但終歸都是高級的食肆,「味」不夠好時還有「色」和「香」可取,兼且也很久沒有跟太太舒舒服服的歎其下午茶,寫意非常!

太太還未開口吃,已經先笑出來。可是若非免費,誰會花上HK$280來吃這些小小的三文治、小小的蛋糕、西餅和麵包?

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Thursday, September 22, 2005

訓個好覺

細女擒晚卒之可以好安樂咁訓一個好覺!皆因呢排老婆要洗晒全屋企既毛毛公仔,淨係洗同埋浪乾都要幾日(已經係用煤氣乾衣機)!

平時細女一定要攬住呢隻戴住紅色領巾既啤啤熊先至肯訓,佢話無佢陪會發夢個喎。但係隻啤啤熊仲未乾,無理由攬上床?下話?扭左兩晚,朝早仲係返學之前走過黎嘈醒老婆,投訴點解唔比佢攬住隻熊仔訓... 好lor,擒晚卒之乾透啦!可以訓番覺好架啦!

屋企咁多毛毛公仔,作為屋企唯一既男人,真係自己喑錢買既其實唔係咁多,點知整下整下兩隻野草埋草埋既公仔,都可以霸晒成一兩格書架,可以浪幾日,此謂「日子有功」,靈命都係咁上下...

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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Design for a better world

唔駛講咁多野,一件睇見都開心既事:







上面所有圖片,全部黎自「無止橋」個網站:A bridge too far

真可惜,錯過左上星期日既特輯!希望遲D係圖書館借番黎睇...

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

呈現(Representation)

昨 晚深宵在電視看到一個德國Industrial Designer的故事。這位設計師雖然已經七十多歲,仍然對他已擁有卅多名員工的設計公司的事情親力親為,包括親自見客present公司的產品設計。 節目訪問了一個跟他相識很多年的客戶,這為客人盛讚他的老朋友不單是一位優秀的設計師,還是一為很好的communicator。我便跟太太說:「為甚麼 設計教育沒有任何科目教學生如何跟客人溝通,有效地sell自己的設計?」現代的設計教育,由設計理論、design thinking、creative thinking... 到軟件應用的科目(對,是「科目」,內容和質素如何則不得而知!)都涵蓋了,為甚麼單單沒有溝通技巧上的訓練?這一代的年青人,能說能畫能寫的都好像較難 找的了!Email都是forward的多,自己寫的少。ICQ嗎?說的都不下是really? yeah! oic! nope! OK, cu soon... 長一點的也說不出來了...

突然想起Camus Yu在學子的blog上說過,設計師就像相士,懂得設計之時也要有如相士的嘴巴,說服客人、教育客人。(當然,另一 種說法是好的設計不必用上人的嘴巴去闡釋,將作品和設計的觀賞/使用者的互動關係必然化,這個題目有機會再談。)

回 到校園後,也接觸到一個跟溝通和傳達意念息息相關的題目「呈現(Representation)」。Representation可以說是一個很闊的題 目,它完全影響了我們怎樣觀察和了解我們身處的世界,包括聖經!今天一切我們所能認知的東西都是通過「呈現」的過程才達到我們面前,我們才能對之有所認 識。亦是因為它的巨大影響力,我在2003年一次主日學也大膽將一點點這方面的概念放進課堂裡面。(其實要將之完滿地說明,我想要專為它開一個五六堂的課 程也未必能說完!)

不知你有沒有到過香港歷史博物館,參觀過其常設展「香港故事」。那裡以香港為一個漁港為始,以九七回歸為終結,將香港 歷史生動地呈現在市民面前。作為一個 土生土長的香港人,假若你細味一下這個展覽所論述的「香港歷史」,不難發現它是一個有立場的歷史論述。單以其展示回歸的方式,描述港人那種全城歡騰,慶祝 香港回歸中國懷抱,已經可圈可點。原來被展現出來的歷史,不一定要代表多數人的看法;原來在對一件(應該客觀)事實的論述,是可以有立場,不!應該說是必 定有立場、有目的!怪不得在台灣,有歷史教科書將來自中國大陸的統治,寫成跟被葡萄牙、荷蘭、或日本統治沒有多大分別 —— 其實都是「外來的」政權。這個從本土文化身份為出發點的台灣歷史論述,就是為了要透過「重新發現」台灣歷史,完成建構一個獨立的台灣國家身份的目的。要展 現香港人是渴望回到祖國的懷抱,可以用維港和青馬大橋大放煙花的壯麗場面。要展現台灣人其實並不是中國大陸的一部份、有其獨立的文化和身份、將台獨合理 化,可以透過「重新發現」和「重新論述」台灣原居民的獨特文化,如語言、習俗和信仰等。歷史(事實)本身是否真的如此發生並不重要,重要的是所呈現出來的 歷史,能否傳達描述歷史者要傳達的信息和印象!你看得見歷史是如何通過「呈現」左右我們對所謂「真實」的了解嗎?

各種知識、學問、或資料的呈現,都必先有其「再呈現(represent > re-present)」的動機和目的,才有其選定的立場,才有其對事實的描述手法 —— 怎樣寫才能傳達作者要傳達的信息?這便是representation所擔當的角式了。

回 到讀聖經上,怎樣應用representation來解構經文背後的動機、目的、立場和手法?可以透過分析經文的 denotation(明確表示的意思)和connotation(隱藏的含意)、可以透過觀察和比較present(出現)和 absent(沒有出現)的符類福音經文,再推敲其對經文取捨的原因等,都是有用的方法。但可惜在這裡實在不能說得太多。我們常說要研讀聖經,必須先了解 其「原意」。這個「原意」,可以是上帝啟示的原意或聖經作者的原意。前者的確很難確定,後者就唯有透過各種釋經的方法掌握。但在運用各種釋經方法的同時, 分析一下經文的呈現方式也不失為一個好方法。想一想為甚麼聖經作者會將事情用這種方式呈現給當時的讀者,上帝又為甚麼將事情和真理讓聖經作者這樣寫,要呈 現給後世的讀者一幅怎樣的圖畫和教訓... 相信會幫助我們更明白聖經。

大概那位年過七十的設計前輩,也從這一代後浪身上找不到具備過人的表達和溝通能力的接班人,他才要在這把年紀還要親自將設計present和解釋給客人看... 說的、寫的、畫的,你懂得那幾樣?

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Sunday, September 18, 2005

家庭崇拜

星 期天卻沒有參加教會的主日崇拜,太太便建議我們一家人自己進行崇拜。於是一家人分工合作的為將要在客廳進行的崇拜預備。我吩咐大家從各詩歌CD中挑選一 首詩歌作分享和讚美之用、我就將所須的歌詞預先影印、小女兒則從她的《幼兒聖經》中挑選了拉撒路復活這則聖經故事給我作分享信息之用、太太拿了一個錦囊出 來,並叫眾人預備奉獻。好了,家庭崇拜開始了!

一·爸爸(我)領禱開始崇拜;

二·詩歌敬拜:
1.《頌讚你Hallelujah》讓敬拜以讚美開始;
2.《全是好友》(小女兒挑的):「基督邀請你做朋友...」,主耶穌招聚我們來到祂面前;
3.《Make me a channel of Your peace》(大女兒選的,是《使我作你和平之子》的英文版):我正好用下面的歌詞引入聖經分享:
Where there's despair in life, let me bring hope
Where there is darkness, only light, and
Where there's sadness, ever joy...
And in dying that we're born to eternal life.

三·《幼兒聖經》將主耶穌叫拉撒路復活的故事以拉撒路第一身敘述,讓我們明白了拉撒路如何因主耶穌的原故從那死亡的黑暗世界回到光明中,並且他的家人也因此由悲傷和失望轉變為喜樂和滿有盼望,回應了上面的歌詞;

四·《你讓我生命改變》(太太選的):我想這首歌完全全的回應了剛才的信息和先前的詩歌。主耶穌給我們的拯救,將我們的生命由絕望轉為有把握、叫我們脫離黑暗進入光明、由悲傷轉為喜樂、由滅亡轉為永生!歌詞最後一句「身心皆奉獻」亦自然帶我們來到奉獻時間;

五·奉獻由大女兒收取和為獻金祈禱。她祈得不錯呢!

六·《彩色拼圖》(我挑的)帶出我們不單要獻上金錢,還有大家要「恩賜配合成大器,讓潛能為主全傾獻」!

七·太太還攪笑地加上報告環節,說兩個女兒明天不用上學;

八·爸爸領禱結束崇拜。

大概兩個女兒感覺在家崇拜很新鮮,到吃晚飯的時候還談論著,見我寫著這個blog時還不停地笑...

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Saturday, September 17, 2005

Conquer by forgiving

The fellowship last night was about tackling conflicts. I ended the session with the following 2 quotes:

"There is a hard law...When an injury is done to us, we never recover until we forgive." ~ Alan Paton

"The glory of Christianity is to conquer by forgiveness." ~ William Blake

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Friday, September 16, 2005

從理性到感性, 從現代到後現代的信仰

「我們常常聽見『後現代』這詞語,到底我們知不知甚麼是『後現代』?」弟兄一句漫不經心的提問,居然可以引發一連串在飯桌上的討論,倒也有趣和有意思,總比大家只是說說天氣或埋怨一下工作好。

現代高舉理性,後現代不單質疑、批判、甚至想巔覆理性,還轉為高舉感性。

在 理性主導的現代社會,傳福音的方法是不論人家喜不喜歡,只管告訴人因為他有罪,所以必須得到神的拯救。這是理性上很容易明白的論據。人信了主便馬上要明 白得救的確據,加上初信栽培給初信主的弟兄姊妹打好真理的基礎,好讓將來他面對信仰的衝擊,也曉得理性地運用這些以理性去了解和認識的真理,籍它分析問題 所在。在講壇上,牧師和傳道人所教導的,是如何「為主受苦」。假若你有甚麼負面情緒,很可能是因為你沒有好好讀聖經或操練真理不足所致。團契週會也是管它 悶蛋不悶蛋,只管孜孜不倦的查考聖經,將聖經真理「有咁多得咁多」塞進弟兄姊妹的腦袋裡。總之有好的理性基礎,幾乎可以抵擋感性上任何的衝擊!

在 感性主導的後現代社會,傳福音的方法是不要勉強人聽你「硬銷」福音,最好花點腦筋如何從生活經驗入手,然後與福音連起來。耶穌、十架等字句不提也不打 緊,只要讓人經驗有神的喜樂、平安和聖靈的充滿便足夠,不用花甚麼唇舌去講解。人信了主,最好先參加一些幫助他清除和醫治過往創傷的課程,確保他在天路的 起點踏出快樂的第一步;真理的裝備?還是遲一點再說吧!在講壇上的牧師和傳道人,再也沒有像上一代的奮興會培靈會的講員一般,常常狠狠的罵我們信得不像 樣,反變得凡是呵護備至。少點批評,多用點溫柔的言詞建立大家。團契週會也是要多講形式上的活潑和變化,以互動性、團友的參與為大前題,主題內容也圍繞著 我們信耶穌後是否快樂和滿足。查考聖經只須將背景和真理的部份輕輕帶過好了,還是留多點時間給弟兄姊妹籍經文彼此分享吧!總之,一刻真實的宗教經驗,遠勝 冗長的道理。你總不能用理性分析來否定我第一身經驗的真實性啊!

後現代的思潮,像遍佈全身的微絲血管一樣,在我們週遭任何一個角落影響著我們的意識型態,包括我們的信仰...

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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

木製月餅盒

有無見過工具箱式包裝既月餅?

老婆收到呢盒月餅倒算特別:木製、銅做既扣都幾襯、鬚上傳統酸枝紅木顏色、結構就好似一般擺放鑼絲批同鐵鎚既工具箱,裡面放左幾個掌門人做代言人既元朗品牌月餅同一個茶葉錦囊。

月餅好唔好食就食過至知、茶葉正唔正就沖過黎飲至可以下定論,不過個盒就肯定可以留番新年愛黎做全盒...

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Tuesday, September 13, 2005

魔鬼看我, 我看魔鬼

上星期六用Losungen靈修的經文:

「那些向耶和華深藏謀略的人,有禍了!他們在暗中行事,說:“誰看見我們?誰知道我們?”」
∼賽廿九15

「沒有甚麼隱藏的事不被顯明,也沒有甚麼掩蓋的事不被人知道而暴露出來。」∼路八17

我相信的上帝是全知、無所不在的,就是最隱密的事情和思想,神都會知道。越有這種意識就越不敢胡思亂思想;當然另一方面,越是向人難以言喻的喜樂、平安、苦毒等感受,亦有我這位上帝明白,這是多麼值得安慰的事情!

我常有以下這些想法(並沒有認真在聖經上研究過的):

一·「靈界」是在空間甚至時間之上,不受它限制的。換句話說,在靈界你除了不受物質世界限制,可以穿牆過壁外,還可以在時間中隨意往來,查察一切曾在時間中發生過的人和事。對身處物質界的人來說,我們會稱之做「無處不在」。

二·魔鬼撒旦既也屬靈界,那牠應該和上帝一樣都是無處不在的了。

三·可是我相信魔鬼撒旦並不是如上帝般全知的,原因是牠會驕傲地認為自己可以與上帝為敵,不信最終自己會失敗,證明牠沒有自知之明,牠最少有這項「不知」。

(Eugene Smith畫的妖魔鬼怪好正,所以係度問佢借一張黎用。)

但 因為魔鬼無處不在,並且可以追溯世界和我們每個人的歷史,所以我也相信牠對我們瞭如指掌,有十足把握知道怎樣引誘我們、怎樣擊倒我們、並怎樣打沉我們, 叫我們一蹶不振!可是我不知怎的,總覺得我們心靈深處和腦裡面的思想,牠卻不一定知悉。所以很多時(猶其是獨個兒或有一些不好的想法在我腦裡泛起的時候) 我會偏向沉默兼且木無表情,因我相信按魔鬼撒旦對我們的深入認識,並牠無時無刻的在監察著我、凝視著我(彼前五8,想像一隻匿藏在草叢,即將要向獵物發動 襲擊的老虎那種眼神...),我便會裝作若無其事,盡量不想自己最細微的表情或身體語言暴露給牠知悉我腦裡在想甚麼(當然有些不知不覺流露了出來的也一定 會有),以致牠有多一個角度攻擊我。對我來說,這就是「不給魔鬼留地步」了。並且我心內會靜靜的祈禱,告訴神我當下的想法,並且我會為只有上帝可分享我這 些想法而感恩 —— 唯有祂才是最明白我的那一位!

但矛盾的是,既然上帝也擁有一切魔鬼所懂得的技輛,我對神卻竟然沒有對魔鬼那種警醒,唯有常常用這節聖經提醒自己吧:

「那些殺身體卻不能殺靈魂的,不要怕他們;倒要怕那位能把靈魂和身體都投入地獄裡的。」
∼太十28

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Monday, September 12, 2005

The Big Disney Day

今日對香港人黎講,仲有乜野大件事得過迪仕尼開幕?個細女成日問住係咪我乖就有得去?幾時去?我就俾住同老婆成十年前去Euro Disneyland D video同LA個Disneyland D相比佢睇住先,佢都照殺!加埋自從比佢地睇左Disney Channel之後,我估佢地兩隻野都已經中晒迪士尼毒啦... 以前買落個D迪士尼DVDs都好似敵唔過Disney Channel既Kim Possible, Lizzie McGuire, Lindsey Lohan, Olsen Twins(死未?六七歲人仔鍾意埋晒呢D掛住電髮、搽指甲圖案、扮靚、同識男仔既青春偶像!)...

諗完又諗,而家係Disney Channel做緊既節目同搵Pixar製作既動畫,其實都係純劇情片,淨係得娛樂成份,睇唔見有咩教育意義。睇番明珠台同國際台四至六既芝麻街、 Pingu、Fimbles、Andy Pandy、Tweenies、Barney、Clifford... 全部都健康過佢,動畫風格亦唔見得輸蝕(設計師梗要睇呢D),所以都係硬住心腸將Now Broadband TV個remote「柄」埋佢,逼佢兩隻野睇番至得...

結果:大女日日又加多一個問題:「Daddy,幾時可以睇Disney Channel呀?妹妹今日無曳、我地兩個又乖lor bor!」唉!有咩辦法唔俾佢兩個大住?

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Saturday, September 10, 2005

First day of Typography class

原 本這篇網誌(中國大陸在翻譯上都講求連發音都要接近,比如worldwide web不叫「互聯網」而叫「萬維網」,不單在普通話發音上相似,也能將蜘蛛網的spider web互相交織的意思繹了出來!Blog呢?在大陸原來叫「博誌」,你認為如何?)應該早點寫,想寫剛開始教新一個學期typography的感受,連同 下課當晚學生的作品貼滿班房的壯觀情景post上來,可是等了兩天,相片還沒有收到,收到的反而是另一個學生當晚的感受:

"I enjoy your class so much yesterday..."

開學第一天,有三個surprises:

一.今個學期學院將兩班放在一起,我要連續由下午三時半教至晚上十時。起初以為有半個小時休息,應該沒甚麼問題。誰知真的連續行行企企的講授、討論、看學生堂上做功課... 結果沒有連續坐下超過五分鐘,晚上回家後兩條小腿實在酸痛得要命!

二.下午上課前看著點名的名單,以為只有十五個學生,誰知來了廿一人,超過了上個學期的數目。晚上的一班更來了卅人,椅子也不夠用,真的沒想過!校務處的人也真是,怎麼可以跟名單相差那麼遠?

三.晚上的一班來了一個英國伙子,立刻在沒有準備下改為雙語授課。很多年都沒有連續講過那麼多英文了,可幸還比想像中流利,也沒有因人多脅場,還算滿意,上面學生寄來的電郵也confirm了自己的想法。

感謝神,給我這個學期的師表生涯有個好的開始!但願在十四堂過後,我沒有變跛子、人數沒有越來越少、學生滿有得著、亦能做一些出色的作品出來,我就心滿意足了!

平日數碼相機都是隨身的,可是上星期日借了給人,相片唯有要等學生記得給自己才有得看了。反正Blogger可以讓我隨時修改自己的message,還是先將上面的寫出來吧!

當晚lecture部份的最後一張slide

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Thursday, September 08, 2005

Word verification for comments

Dear all,

Got my first spam comment today. This makes me necessary to add a "word verification" measure for all those of you who want to comment on my blog. It will complicate your commenting procedure a little bit. Sorry for the inconvenience caused!

Keep commenting!

既理性也非理性的信仰

久違了的溫偉耀博士,昨天晚上有機會再現場聽他談困苦和福音(肯定是他的強項),雖然說不上有甚麼新的驚喜,但始終仍是一次精彩的演繹,也叫我想起之前寫 過的《憑甚麼》,兼能一睹日理萬機的大老闆現身說法自己在神裡面的經歷,也可算與太太過了一個有意 思的晚上。不過最開心的是有不少人在聚會中決志信主,包括那在上主日才認識的新朋友,實在替她高興!

在這個「後現代」時代,人們講的都是感覺、多元,任何道理,包括信仰,都會被挑戰或顛覆。在宗教的圈子裡,信徒所追求的亦是著重感受的宗教經驗(怪不得極 盡強調主耶穌皮肉之苦的《受難曲》會那麼受歡迎!),卻忽略了信仰的理性基礎。對我來說,我的信仰是既理性也是非理性的(它當然也有感性的一面)。它的理 性面保證我們的信仰不是自己空想出來,或變成一種迷信。神的創造、挪亞方舟、洪水、主耶穌的降生、受死和復活、並許多聖經的預言(像以色列的復國)等,都 與歷史極其吻合,叫人無可推諉。神的話兩千年來同樣站立得住,是我們可以全心信靠的。可是寶貴的,是我們的信仰並不只是一套合乎理性邏輯、合乎歷史和科學 的一套完備哲理,它還可以帶我們超越理性的範疇,以信心跨進我們眼睛看不見、理性邏輯通不過、頭腦想像不到的境地,真正與創天造地的上帝接觸,明白祂原來 真是在這些東西之上!當我所遭遇的,是我眼睛看不見、理性邏輯通不過、頭腦也想像不到的時候,我便能夠不因此信心沒有了倚靠而失腳,反而更懂得仰望神,全 心交託。

假若我們的信仰全依賴一大堆宗教經驗和感覺來支撐,忽略了理性的基礎,或沒有好好在神的話語上下功夫,恐怕當左右我們感受和情緒的外在環境一轉變,我們便 不堪一擊,那些感覺突然間變得多麼飄忽不定,便沒有甚麼再可給我們找住。還是讓我們仍在安舒的日子裡,多點反省和為自己的信心打好根基,好讓衝擊一旦來 到,我們或許仍能站立得穩...

「聰明的人,把自己的房子蓋在磐石上。雨淋、水沖、風吹,搖撼那房子,房子卻不倒塌,因為建基在磐石上。... 愚蠢的人,把自己的房子蓋在沙土上。雨淋、水沖、風吹,搖撼那房子,房子就倒塌了,並且倒塌得很厲害。」∼太七24-27

患難困苦,是從來不會給你預告,或等你預備好才到來的。你打好了根基了嗎?

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Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Wealth, health, and character

葛培理說過這樣的一句話:

"When wealth is lost, nothing is lost; when health is lost, something is lost; when character is lost, all is lost."

心懷意念(腓四7)從來都是上帝最著緊我們的東西,它包含著神的形像。我們要在性格上追求聖靈的果子(加五16-25)。身體的衰殘是少不免,我們是被上帝設計成這樣的。不過只要心意持續更新(羅十二2),這是不足架意的。

「我們並不沮喪,我們外面的人雖然漸漸朽壞,但裡面的人卻日日更新」∼林後四16

在上帝的眼中,錢財乃身外物,從來都不重要(太六19-34)。這才是上帝的優先次序。

可惜的是,我們常將這優先次序倒轉過來:我們會為了錢財,不顧身體的健康,拼命的去賺,最後甚至連人格也可以出賣了!假若單為金錢才這樣還好,但很多時候 叫我們寧可放棄健康和自己(人格)的,還有權力、慾望、成就、仇恨、感情、時間... 想一想我們過去曾經為這些東西,怎樣運用自己的詭詐,傷害了人和自己,到頭來連神給我們新造的自己也賠上了... 但願我們再遭遇這些衝激的時候,再想一想雅各的勉勵:

「我的弟兄們,你們遭遇各種試煉的時候,都要看為喜樂;因為知道你們的信心經過考驗,就產生忍耐。但忍耐要堅持到底,使你們可以完全,毫無缺乏。你們中間 若有人缺少智慧,就當向那厚賜眾人,而且不斥責人的 神祈求,他就必得著。可是,他應該憑著信心祈求,不要有疑惑」∼雅一2-6

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Tuesday, September 06, 2005

What is Education?

Education is the art, the action and process of changing people's minds and ultimately people's behaviour.

The kindergarten teacher educates:
She teaches kids the ABCs (minds) so they speak (behave) what is considered correct. She teaches them the hows (minds) so they behave what is considered correct.

The kindergarten kids educate:
Instead of rationalising everything, they only do what is enjoyable to them. Now the teacher sees (mind) that things to be taught has to be attractive and enjoyable. Now the teacher teaches (behave) creatively.

The university professor educates:
He does not tell his students what is correct (minds) so they have to find (behave) it by themselves. The students struggle, experience, criticise, testify, and so believe (minds) what they have found is correct and act (behave) accordingly.

The university students educate:
Instead of doing what is only attractive and enjoyable, they are asked to criticise what is considered correct, even it is from their professors and considered "sacred". Now the professor sees that everything he considered correct are being challenged. Now the professor struggles, experiences, criticises, testifies, and so renewed his beliefs (mind) and acts (behave) accordingly.

前 陣子因旅遊而錯過了與一班同學給這位貌似《仙樂飄飄處處聞》主角Julie Andrews並將要離港的老師送別(這個世代還有沒有「謝師宴」這回事?),著實感到可惜!老實說,兩年來她只教過我一科,並沒有從她身上學到甚麼。 但從同學和老闆口中得悉她也在為我寫畢業論文的進度擔憂,並且離去前給了我老闆一封電郵,囑咐他在這個月內不要給我太多工作,好讓我能專心完成這項功課云 云... 心裡頓時泛起一陣歉意,皆因有老師在為自己的事擔憂的時候,自己卻在過去兩三個月因其它事情佔據了自己的心力、又沒有想到甚麼好的靈感和概念、更沒有好好 管理和利用時間... 現在不過(照例)在臨急抱佛腳吧!

為了向她表達謝意,我在給她的告別電郵裡這樣寫:
"...thanks again for the last 2 years for allowing me to speak, to debate, and to make mistakes in the class. And thanks for praising me too. I sincerely pray that you will find your next breakthrough in your life experience with your future days."

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Monday, September 05, 2005

Judas' road to betrayal

說起猶大,想起九九年自己在教會受苦節崇拜中分享過的一篇道《十字架與我》,現在節錄其中一部份內容是改篇自溫偉耀博士的一篇道

在太十38和路十四27主耶穌說:「凡不背著自己十字架跟從我的,也不能作我的門徒。」假若我們信了耶穌,但沒有將那個只愛偏行己路的自己處死,不要說我們不能作主耶穌的門徒,我警告你一個更嚴重的後果,不只是像彼得不認主,更要有一天會像猶大一樣出賣耶穌。

一 個人由他決定跟從主,至公開地否認祂甚至出賣祂,不會是一朝一夕的事情。在約翰福音六章,主耶穌行了著名的五餅二魚神蹟。之後祂便借著這個有關吃的場合 講了一篇很難的道(六60-64),澄清祂要賜給人的並不是餅和魚,乃是生命的糧,屬靈的糧? 猶大把主耶穌的話都聽進去了,只是這篇道一點沒有叫他感到滿足,因為猶大從此知道耶穌並不會滿足自己對耶穌的期望。當時跟從耶穌的人對耶穌有著不同的期 望,較明顯的有幾類:有在祂身上找到在其他人身上找不到的愛和接納(像稅吏馬太,撒該等)、有期望從祂得到病痛的醫治(像患血漏的婦人、長大痲瘋的等)、 有期望祂會賜他們餅和魚(肉身的溫飽,像來自北部較落後的加利利當漁夫的彼得等,屬低下階層者)、有期望祂會帶領他們擺脫羅馬的統治(像奮銳黨的西門 等),來自加略的猶大相信屬於後者。由於加略比加利利接近當時的政治、文化和宗教中心耶路撒冷,相信他的知識水平會比其他門徒高,更何況在十二門徒中他居 然能夠勝過熟識理財的稅吏馬太而當上管理錢財的(十二6),我們有理由相信他追隨耶穌並不會是為了餅和魚那麼簡單。

我認為我們像猶大多於 像其他門徒:較中產、有一定的知識水平(自以為幾「掂」),我們不像奮銳黨西門那樣因為民族感情才跟從耶穌。很大可能我們起初跟從 主,是像猶大一樣,期望耶穌會在我們的人生的路途上幫上一把,或是生活、或是自我形像、或是事業、或是學業、或是愛情等,而並非要獻上自己為神幹一番。但 當我們發現原來耶穌所關心的與我們所著緊的有所分別時,我們會有甚麼想法?聖經作者在這裡特別記下耶穌在六64所說,說明猶大在這裡確對耶穌有點失望了。 雖然猶大在那刻沒有離開耶穌,但其熱誠相信開始減少了。弟兄姊妹,信主至今你追隨主耶穌的熱誠是否褪色了?是否主耶穌在甚麼事情上叫你失望,祂沒有滿足你 個人的期望嗎?或許我們要回想起初是甚麼叫我們決志跟從耶穌。隨著對神的認識日漸增長,在祂裡面的經歷日漸加深,我們是否需要調較一下,捨棄自己個人的野 心和慾望?或是我們已經跌進要賣主的危機裡呢?

來到約翰福音十二章,耶穌正在馬大和馬利亞家中作客,因為主耶穌曾經叫她倆的弟弟拉撒路復 活過來(約十一)。猶大看馬利亞的行動為浪費(約十二4-5), 是因為他從來沒有像馬大和馬利亞般真真實實的經歷主的深恩(主叫馬大和馬利亞的弟弟從死裡復活過來啊!)。當有弟兄姊妹拿出他月薪的十份之一,或甚至超過 十份之一來奉獻時,或是他們拿出無法計算的時間和心機來事奉時,我們會否感到這是一種浪費,認為那一二千元的月捐和那些寶貴的時間其實可以大派用場?抑或 是我們還未嘗過像他們一樣在主裡的恩典?到底是甚麼叫我們與他們有這不同的看法?我們每天在不信的世人當中生活,必然的我們會面對兩種的價值觀和道德觀, 我們會選擇捨棄那一種而採用那一套?弟兄姊妹,信主至今你有否將神的價值觀漸漸消化成為你自己的價值觀?神的屬性有否漸漸成為你的聖靈果子?或是你漸漸感 到神那一套價值觀和道德觀根本在這世代行不通、不設實際、用不著、太理論化、太理想化、太浪漫,以致你今天在你的家人間、同事間、同學間、朋友間和弟兄姊 妹間,只是選擇性地應用某些原則,或甚至陽奉陰違地生活呢?

六章、十二章,結果猶大在約翰福音十三章便決定出賣耶穌了。一直以來猶大以一 廂情願的原因決志跟從耶穌,期望主耶穌會滿足他個人的期望,卻換來了多次的失 望。最後猶大認為他不再需要主這「沒用的工具」而決定出賣祂。在出賣主那一刻猶大還沒有捨棄他原來跟從主的個人動機,希望主能滿足他。弟兄姊妹,在神給我 們的人生目標以外,我們是否還有一些自己看為更重要的目標呢?小心有一天我們發現原來主耶穌根本沒有打算滿足它而使我們失望。小心撒旦藉這個機會進入我們 的心裡,好像進入猶大的心裡一樣,將我們陷在賣主的危機裡!或是我們要趕快弄清楚,我們到底為甚麼跟從主,捨棄一些神要我們捨棄的,那些東西可能是一些物 質上的、理想上的、性格上的、或是個人原則上的? 假若我們每天禱告神的,只是盼望神怎樣滿足我個人的心願;在弟兄姊妹、團契生活中,只是要求人家滿足我,那我們就根本沒有背起過自己的十字架,沒有為神捨 棄過甚麼。我們的信仰就仍是一個自我中心的信仰,並不符合跟從主耶穌的要求。

「若有人要跟從我,就當捨己,天天背起他的十字架來跟從我。」

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Sunday, September 04, 2005

Jesus and His VDPs

Judas may be the most obvious VDP to Jesus. He got disappointed with Jesus' teachings (John 6:60-64), he criticized about people loving Jesus too much (John 12:3-5), he even stole money from the group (12:6)... While some people questioned about God's love towards Judas because it seems that he was like a scapegoat(代罪羔羊)in God's plan of salvation, I would like to invite you to ponder about the followings:

1. Jesus knew about Judas' betrayal long beforehand;
2. Jesus washed Judas' feet after the last supper, and gave His commandment on love;
3. Jesus allowed Judas to come close to him -- betraying Him with a kiss. Yes, that close.

And when Judas came to that close, Jesus asked, "Judas, are you betraying the Son of Man with a kiss?" (Luke 22:48) He ended His last words to Judas with a question, still challenging him for repentance until the last moment. Jesus did not give up this VDP of His.

Peter may be another VDP of Jesus. He denied his Lord for 3 times during those most critical moments in Jesus' life. Peter got so guilty about it and thought he could never recover or regain the Lord's trust or forgiveness. He went back to being a fisherman, which might be the only thing he could rediscover his self-significance after such trauma.

But Jesus came to his VDP with questions again. While everybody thought He was going to blame Peter about his denial (John 21:12), our Lord asked him the same questions for 3 times (John 21:15, 16, 17). 3 challenges to 3 denials. And there Peter was restored from a man of serious guilt to a man full of the Holy Spirit, leading the apostles to witness for the Lord with power from then on until his last moment (John 21:19). Again, Jesus did not give up on his VDP, and this VDP was transformed into a VIP and even VRP to many. And that power of transformation is Jesus' love.

2 VDPs, 2 response to Jesus, and 2 endings. But 1 thing remains the same: Jesus did not give up on His VDPs, neither will He today or tomorrow.

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Friday, September 02, 2005

5 kinds of brothers & sisters around us

The followings are adopted from Gordon MacDonald's Restoring Your Spiritual Passion for John Fellowship tonight.

Christianity is a faith characterized by relationships: God-me relationship, God-us relationship, me-b&s relationship, believers-non-believers relationship... Our spiritual passion(屬靈的熱枕), or energy, is affected by these relationships. Being with people could sometimes be exhausting. But fleeing from them of course is not God wants us to do. We had been called as a servant to people, especially the broken, the hurting. With some people it would be tiring but for some it could be lifting, because people contribute to or draw from our inner energy. Understanding the effect people have upon us will help us to know where our spiritual energy goes and where we should go when we want to restore it. MacDonald introduced to us 5 kinds of people that affect our spiritual passion, an over-exposure to any one kind sets up imbalance.

1. The VRP (Very Resourceful People): Mentors(屬靈導師)who ignite(燃點)our passion.

VRP ignite our passion for faith and Christlike performance. With them we feel accepted and appreciated. They spared their precious time for our problems and offered guidance and possible solutions. VRP is like a coach(教練)who not only encourages but also rebukes and exhorts(督責). He knows how to persuade an athlete to accept a certain amount of pain in order to reach higher levels of potential, and he knows how to turn athletic performance (winning or losing) into a character-building moment. VRP are aware of our flaws(缺點)and possibilities.

We are sometimes tempted to want to be with VRPs all the time. But that could be as unhealthy in the long run as it will make us too dependent and fail to grow. Jesus told His disciples that "it is to your advantage that I go away." (John 16:7) so that the Holy Spirit could take over to help them to grow to be more independent and mature.

We study their ways and then customize them for ourselves. We lean upon them for directions and approvals. Do you have your VRP around you so that you can go to when you need advice, guidance and help? Are you a VRP to somebody? What could they can learn from you?

2. The VIP (Very Important People): Teammates who share our passion.

VIP are fellow workers in the Lord's ministries. They share our workload, our joy, our weeping and hurting. Barnabas and Paul are VIP. Paul used the term yokefellow(同 負一軛的)to refer to those who had shared the yoke of ministry together. With our VIP, we do not need to spend a lot of time just trying to warm up, or debating who is in charge. We are bound together to get our common vision realized and the Lord's things done. Together we stir one another to be more zealous about our passion toward God.

Do you have your VIP around you to share your joy, your burden, your call and your passion, so that you will not feel spiritually alone? Did you share anyone's passion as VIP too?

3. The VTP (Very Trainable People): Apprentice who catch our passion


Timothy was VTP to Paul. Elisha was VTP to Elijah. So was Esther to Mordecai, who challenged her by saying, "who knows whether you have not come to the kingdom for such a time as this?" (Esther 4:14)

Although VTP tax(支取)our strength, we are still glad to help them because we see the possibilities in them. We find what we spent rewarding and worth it. We draw VTPs to our side and open our lives to them, so that they can learn from our struggles and triumphs.

Paul wrote to Timothy that "what you have heard from me [VRP] before many witness entrust to faithful men [VTP] who will be able to teach others also [more VTP]." (2 Timothy 2:2)

As we grow, VTP should become an increasing priority in our lives so that we may provide the possibility of a succeeding generation of leaders and godly men and women. Do you have VTP around you to catch your passion, so that you vision and call from the Lord will continue to last even when you are not able to serve anymore? Did you make yourself a VTP and learn from your VRP too?

4. The VNP (Very Nice People): The congregation(會眾)who enjoy our passion


VNP come in large numbers, and we love to have them around. They clap and laugh and build our egos so we feel our self-significance. However, they do not really add to our passion nor they seriously diminish it. They simply enjoy it.

Jesus never turn His back upon the VNP. He saw them as sheep without a sheperd, and He treated them with dignity and possibility. Among the VNP there certainly some will eventually become VTP or even VIP to us. But when the crowds of VNP grew too large, the Lord would sharpen the blade of teaching and make it clear that there were price to pay in discipleship (see John 6).

In a church most of the resources are often devoted to VNP. While VIP and VTP normally are willing to accept great inconvenience in order to have more resources spent on God's ministries, VNP prefer to live in their safe zones, the unprosecuted world. They prefer facilities (like enough air-con), times, programs built on their convenience and comfort. This is something the leaders of a church should ponder.

If you are a leader in your church, you always need to spend substantial amount of time solving problems and interpersonal conflicts about VNP. The task could be wearing and draining, although they do show their appreciation and applause to your efforts. But when it is time to serve, VNP are not always the team that you are with. So ministries on VNP should be done wisely. We could not afford having them to absorb all our energy which could be a secondary priority when compared to VIP or VTP.

There will always be VNP around us, but did you learn to allocate wisely your resources towards them? Or did you discover potential VTP among them? Are you staying to be a VNP to others for too long, enjoying others' precious energy and passion but without really responding by commiting more to the Lord?

5. The VDP (Very Draining People): They sap(逐漸侵蝕)our passion


VDP drain our passion by consuming endlessly our time and energy, but without significant growth. When a VDP come to us, we may be eager to help. But the helping process lasts so long that we seldom see any improvement, progress or growth in them and we finally got exhausted. A healthy group of people will lose its vitality (its group passion) mysteriously if there were too many VDP. The life of the group would become problem- or crisis-oriented, and growth or mission of any kind would become impossible. If you see no one want to sign up to be leaders in a group, it may be an alert that there are too many VDP among them that people are either discouraged or hesitated if they can tackle all these problems. Passionate servants of the Lord will fade away if they are not protected properly from the VDP.

While our impression toward VDP may be so negative, it is not impossible that they will not become VTP with the help of the Holy Spirit. If we find we can do nothing about them, we should pray that God will find them appropriate counselers and find referral for them to the more competent. The point is not to make our passion fully drained because of them.

Do you have too many VDP around you that you feel your passion and energy are fading? Are you a VDP to anyone that you just simply consuming their hard work but without reacting properly?


Although VNP and VDP do not contribute in adding our passion in the Lord, it is not right to keep ourselves from them since on them we can practice true agape love as commanded by the Lord, and to proof that we truly love our God. (Matthew 25:40) They must be ministered to. I would argue that it is the glory of God with the presence of VDP in a church and they feel embraced by the body of Christ.The church should not drive them away.

The people around us either give or take. You can see a flow of passion moving from one direction or another: toward us or away from us. It is important to know that. Make a survey of brothers & sisters around you. What kind of people are they? How is the interaction between them and you and making them to become certain roles as mentioned above? And how do they add to you or drain from you your spiritual passion?

Extended reading:
Jesus and His VDPs

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Thursday, September 01, 2005

開學大日子

身為家長,有乜野事大件事得過攪掂仔女D野?九月一號係全香港莘莘學子開學既大日子。六點幾兩公婆晨咁早起身教個工人點樣預備兩個女返學,照例老婆梗俾個工人激到氣頂:無辦法整醒兩個女、由得佢兩個繼續響梳化訓、慢吞吞整早餐、呢樣無做個樣唔記得,好似唔駛趕搭校車咁...

睇見兩個寶貝女咩住個唔成比例既書包等校車,一方面有欣慰,一方面又擔心佢地既將來。欣慰係見到兩隻野一齊自己返學,多年前想像既圖畫而家活現眼前,感謝 神!擔心係唔知佢地係呢個唔健全既教育制度底下,究竟會變成點樣既人、對追求學問知識又會有幾熱衷、與人相處又會點...

感謝上帝,賜我和太太這寶貴的產業!求你讓我倆在育養她們上作個好管家。阿門。

P.S. 有無睇見大女用緊佢最鐘意既「二字拑羊馬」(詠春拳獨步武林既看家馬步)?

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